.a nicer mood.

'now i'm listening to a playlist in my iTunes that i progressively
made over the past month, and i haven't listened to it before. actually
i started four lists:
1. electro pony sluts
2. insane freaks
3. sleepy hardlounge
4. vintage speedgroove
i'm listening to number 3.
and i must say it's absolutely ideal, not really for sleeping, but for
long summer afternoons in a large room, with the window open and
curtains gently moving in the breeze… in an empty house with wooden
floors, in some secluded place, maybe sardinia, or a secret chinese
island, or the south of portugal.
there's a big flat bed and a naked gwendolyn on it, eating a giant
melon or smoothing creamy baby stuff (?) on her body, or anything else
she might do. the light is filtered, dark bluish, soothing after the midday sun.
[ the house belongs to an old gay couple from london. they seldom have
visitors, but trusted us, and didn't bother to get the (the  very
tanned housekeeping boy who lives with his grandfather in an apartment
near the port, above a fish restaurant) to take down the black and
white photos of one of the men, taken when he was a young ballet
dancer, by a forgotten von gloeden or mapplethorpe-influenced friend of
theirs. there are also drawers filled with kodachrome prints and
saturated polaroids of men on the beach, wearing white shirts, sitting
at terraces in the village, holding hard boiled eggs in ruins of a
monastery overlooking the bay. ]
gwendolyn's hair is tangled and salty and never really dries, except
that day that she gets the housekeeper to wash it and massage it with
various delicious smelling products, before we go to the opening of a
local pottery artist. it's just down the street under the stone
archway. she wears a white dress and we feel like we're in another
decade, or a parallel universe, just like the one we know, but better.'
-G. T. E. B. N. de N.

...finding someone who really gets me is the most lovely and wonderful gift. it makes me absolutely anxious and nervous and excited and sick to my stomach.. i love it.